Being a hypocrite | Learning to keep my ears and eyes open and closed simultaneously ..

It's been about two months since I started with class and while this journey has been full of anxiety on one hand, in many ways the experience of these two solid months into this new adventure has made me feel strength and courage and emotion and restlessness at different moments. At some moments I've been driven to the edge... like this very moment and I vent in writing ...as she calms me and brings a gentlewoman's perspective into my life.


Something that my teacher mentioned in class today stuck to me-- that when you know you've done nothing wrong, you must stand by it relentlessly and defend your truth. And even whilst defending it, follow the tenets of nice behaviour and etiquette whilst addressing your challenger.
I couldn’t agree more with this..
And I have in the past, with great detail and care lived by to put this into practise

But, half hour ago-- a conversation just caught me off guard and I'm upset about the fact that I could've handled this better with dignity and class than I actually did.